Breakfast

I love you more than pancakes 

That's pretty rare

I want everyday to begin with a breakfast date

It's the most important meal of the day after all 

I want to make you pancakes 

You and pancakes and happiness 

Every morning, please

boys

Boy in preschool,

Thank you for teaching me what a crush is. I had so much confidence in myself when we played at recess. I wish that never left. 

Little brother,

Sorry for making you my very own living doll when we were younger. Sorry if I ignore you now. 

First boyfriend,

You were too nice for me. I still feel bad sometimes even though you're on the other side of the planet. 

Mr. W,

You're the reason I still get nervous to speak in class and I won't forgive you. But thank you for making me laugh even when you didn't mean to, and thanks for teaching me about sound waves. 

Dad,

You are smart and patient and I want to be more like you every single day. You are my best example. 

Boys I associated with in Jr. High,

I'm not too fond of you. I hope you are better people these days. I think you are to blame for some nasty insecurities. 

Nice boy,

You are smart and patient and you remind me of my dad. I want to be more like you every single day. Thank you.

How Old?

Whoever said "age is just a number" was a liar.

Or maybe they were just incredibly naive. 

Age is a rule, a label, and a judgement.

That's why that boy can kiss you when you're 14, but can't take you on a date until you're both 16. 

& you can legally vote but not legally drink. 

That's why we judge those who get married too young or too old like love has a golden age or expiration date.

If age were just a number you wouldn't be telling me I'm too young to even know what love is


You're too young
you're too young
you're too young
you're too old


Age is unfortunately far more than learning to count.

Brick Flooring

"It has character"

That's what my mother told me every time I asked about the brick flooring in the kitchen

"A home needs character for us to grow into

and that's why we keep the old brick floors"

I can still see the dents from rollerblading in the house and dropping the old microwave

  But the old brick floors are here to stay

You can spot the messiest spills from life, and love, and dinner conversations on those floors

  But they've caught it all and that's why we keep them

They've been scrubbed down one too many times and may have lost some shine

  But those floors have never lost character

Rhythm from the kitchen dance parties

Anxiety from the childhood lectures

Love from everyone who steps foot on them

and character

So much character that even when we replaced the carpet, the brick floors stayed put

A home needs character for us to grow into

and we've grown our roots into the old brick floors

Unpopular Opinions

I want to live in a small house with a big yard

Baths are greater than showers

Sometimes driving in silence is best

Victoria's Secret Pink makes extremely ugly clothing

Cereal is gross

I like to shop alone

If I like a song I have to listen to the full album

Skim milk is best 

I don't need religion to be a good person

Financial lit was really interesting

Maple donuts are a no

I don't hate the kardashians 

Opinions are good and differing opinions are great 

Argue for what you love no matter how simple. 

Monday

Warning: love. 

We've already done the unimaginable- we made Monday the very best day, because that Monday in March was just the beginning. The drive up the canyon and the hike to the cave were still the beginning. Every morning at 6:10am when my alarm is blaring, I know it is just the beginning. We're nothing but part-time lovers because neither of us are old enough for a full time job. I don't mind, I'm too busy enjoying the minimum wage benefits. It's the best kind of simple. The beginning was prom night and the beginning is next Friday after school or even tomorrow at lunch. This is the intro that I don't want to end. Because there are still coffee shops to be discovered and dogs to be adopted and those will hold all new beginnings of their own. This is the intro that doesn't need an ending.

Happy Post

I hope you wake up tomorrow excited. 

Because that on it's own is something to be happy about. 

And if you look in the mirror just to find a bad hair day, I hope you remember the magic of hats. 

The magic of hats and how good you look in that hat. 

How good you look in that hat is something to be happy about.

I hope your best days are long 

And your worst days are short

I hope you become a regular at your favorite restaurant, and that one waitress always greets you with a smile and your usual order. Get excited about good food and kind smiles because they definitely qualify as things to be happy about. 

I hope your best love is your last love because good love is always something to be happy about. 

I hope that everyday never overwhelms you but rather excites you. 

And next time you wake up with hair that just won't manage, please don't forget how good you look in that hat. 

I hope you remember that even bad hair days can turn into something to be happy about.

808s & Heartbreak

I was 5-years-old when I first thought my heart was broken
I saw my preschool crush holding hands with my best friend

When I was 8 my stray cat ran away
I thought my heart had once again broken into smaller bits

I've read a lot of books involving heartache
But I'm still not an expert on the subject

When I was 12-years-old my dad stopped going to church.
I thought for sure this time my heart couldn't be fixed.

I was wrong every time.
Age 5, 8, and 12 feel so little to me now
My heart has still never truly been broken.

I've heard it explained time after time:
Heartbreak is big, dark, and it's inevitable.
I've never heard it described as little.
Soul-shattering, and world-destroying, yes.

But never little.